iv come to realise that they were not wrong.
all they wanted to do was to help me. they cared for me and they wanted the best for me. they didnt want me to live in that world of lies anymore.

all along, they were living with those lies. and so was i, but i nvr knew. ..until just now.

just a few minutes ago, i had a talk with two very important ppl (:
they've knocked so much sense into me i dunt think il be able to sleep tonight.
today is the day that iv come out from those lies. i dunt wana live with those lies anymore. il let go.
il let go of that one thing that i tried to hold on to. it may mean alot to me. and i may love it oh-so-much. but i feel that i do not deserve to be treated this way. living with those lies. and being lied to.

im sorry to all you leaders for my previous posts.
iv come to realise that all you guys did was to care for me.
you knew everything before i did.
thankyou (:

though it may be hard to let go, il still have to do whts best for everyone else.
it would be better if i could continue living my life, righteous with God.
and if he still chooses to live his own life, then there's nothing we all can do. but i pray that he will make a wise decision to come back. as the people here accept you for wht you have done and for who you are, no matter how great a sin you have commited and no matter how big a lie you have told.

im sorry for all this misunderstanding caused.

time will heal our wounds. (:
i will learn to let go.

and when iv learnt to let go.
i promise all of you. that il serve God once again, fully and whole heartedly (: and il step out of the discouragements iv been living in with satan for months. il learn to pick myself up again.
cuz with him, i can do all things. (:

thankyou God.
thankyou Jolene.
thankyou David.
thankyou Gwen.
thankyou Wendy.
thankyou Jency.