tania's a sad girl ):

my eyes were hurting like fcuk last night.
so i went to sleep immediately, after my bath.
lyk my hair was still super wet &stuff.
but i had to go to sleep lah, cause i cannot tahan the pain.
it was pain til i cried lah.
i cried myself to sleep.
it was 9.15pm only -.-
so damn earlyyy.
and i woke up at 4.55am, all of a sudden.
yeah.
then when it was 5.45, my alarm rang &i had to wake up lah.
but then my eyes were still hurting like shit.
so i decided to rest &skip school again.
(i do feel guilty bout it okay. its lyk my n's this year. &im not doing any better academically. the thought of me going to ite can make me cry)

then dad came in around 7plus
dad: tania. why are you skipping school again!?
me: my eyes are very painful.. i want mommy to bring me to the eye doctor later..
dad: you skip school as and when you like. i dont know you lah!

&i cried, once he walked out of my room lah.
he's my dad. he didnt show any concern for me.
he doesnt understand the pain lah. its lyk. EYES leh hello.
your eyes are wht you use to see what, fcuking hell.

then i woke up at 12plus &asked mom to bring me to the eye doctor
mom: im not free to bring you here and there lah, im going out soon

&i just went back to my bedroom.
(sighs)

then dad came back just now
&i said "hi dee"
then he ignored me &walked into his room lah.
then when asha and soph said hi to him
he replied them.
wht the fcuking hell lah.
he's angry with me cause i skipped school again.
NOT AS IF I WANTED TO SKIP SCHOOL RIGHT.
i wanted to go to school today one lor.
there's chinese lesson &bball match after school!
haiz. why cant that fcuking father of mine understand no shyt.



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so bella yuqian &asha's over.
i learnt new songs on the guitar today.
four some more!
only one- yellow card.
time of your life- greenday.
fade to black- metallica
here without you- three doors down.

&i took a very short while to learn all these only.

weiyong loser lah. cannot teach one he.
go his hse, sit there for 3hrs or so, he nvr teach me anth ):


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fcuk dad &mom.
they hurt me. they make me cry.


it h ink ia m beg in nin gt ol ik e myb it cha lil mo rean dmo reand ikin dal i keth a tan noy i ngs hit as sal i lst ill.